"So this year has been nothing but ups and downs and all arounds. I have definitely become a grown up at the age of 29 and I gotta be honest with ya...I am not sure I am ready for it."
I repeat this now because just in this year I have one friend who lost both his parents with in the past 5 months due to seperate instances, one that lost his mother to an unknown cause, another to cancer, a friend's friend's mom to cancer, and just recently found out a close friend's mom has been diagnosed with cancer. Knowing that my parents are not going to be close with all this occuring is also hard to bear. I know it is not a way to think, but how can I not.
The growing up phase starts early in life, but things definitely occur throughout life that make you feel more and more grown up in an instant. I am seeing this more and more each day this year and just don't know how to handle it. I am not one who tends to keep quite, but have been at a loss for words to those that are closest to me and it kills me to not be able to ease the pain with words. I just hope they all know that I am hear to listen or sit in silence if that is what is desired.
